I remember the day I decided to choose life, it was a long time ago after I'd lost my father, and it seemed an easy choice to make.
I decided to wake up each day and choose happiness and to do and think things that brought me joy.
I decided to be grateful and respectful, to be true to myself and to make sure that the things I put my hand to were done well. I also chose negativity and pain, those things are never avoidable for humans - it's a matter of when not if it will happen. I decided to choose failure as well, frailty and fragility; also things a human can rarely, if ever, avoid completely.
I decided to feel and experience the freedom we all have, freedom which is rooted in the ability to make choices which can result in success and failure, happiness and sadness. I chose life at a time when my father was not able to and I know he would have wanted that for me, he told me so before the end.
I decided to embrace my humanity rather that attempt to hold it at bay in some feeble and warped attempt to be something other than I truly am; human.
I love my life and have created a beautiful existence full of happiness, joy and wonder. I have a relationship with a man who respects me, cares for and honors me, and a life that I believe my father would have called meaningful and been proud of. Choosing life with all its mistakes, false starts, failures and fallibilities also meant that I chose life of joy and happiness, success and it's those things I work towards each day at the same time as accepting that they won't always come.
I embrace all of it because all of it makes up life.
)Here's this week's Saturday Selections installment, one of a series of posts in which I share some music I've been listening to. I know you won't like everything I select and that's ok, it's my selection after all.
If you like music and want to share some with the rest of us you're free to do so and maybe you'll even help someone find some music they haven't already discovered. If you wish to use the #saturdayselections tag in the weekend experiences community that's ok too, it's a free space to do as you wish.
Comments (3)
It's beautiful to read you, it's beautiful to see how people join your initiative to share music they enjoy... It's beautiful to read how proud you are of your father, and the security you feel when you imagine how happy he would be if he could see you right now. It's beautiful that you're a happy person. The music you're bringing us is beautiful. I completely agree with your tracks today, especially because I've had a very emotionally difficult week, and music always helps me keep going.
Lovely Sunday, Becca.
🦋❤️🦋
I'm sorry to hear you've had a troublesome week, nothing unfixable I hope and hopefully you're moving towards a solution or past the difficulties. I'm glad my music selection made you happy this week because you seemed to have needed it.
I hope things are improving, thank you for your lovely comment.
Becca 🌷
Everything will be okay, because just as wounds on the skin heal, the soul also has that privilege. Thank you for your good encouragement. Your writing always fills me with a very special fragility... I also admire you greatly for being such an honest and focused person. 🦋
I think we all have a key event in our lives that makes us decide on a path. Yours was your father's departure, mine was my parents' separation, a separation that was necessary to keep life going.
I like today's selection even more than yesterday's, especially because the third one is one of my favourite songs and I also love Adele. Thank you very much, Becca.💗
The separation of parents can be a difficult time; I think it's easy to forget that our parents are also just people who have their own feelings, attitudes, thoughts and behaviours. Things happen and as children we don't always have a full understanding; later in life things may become clear or maybe never become clear I suppose.
Thanks for your comment.
Becca 🌷
As a child, I understood everything. If they hadn't separated, I might not be alive today, because he is a violent, perverse, and sadistic person. The separation saved my life.
Hugs, Becca💗
This was a touching, poignant and quite lovely post written by someone who I imagine to be quite in touch with her feelings. Thank you.
What a nice comment to receive and I think you're very perceptive. I like to think I'm in touch with myself, that I know who and what I am and that I'm not afraid to see areas for improvement and make those changes.
I am not much into social media but it's nice to write here and open up a little from time to time.
Becca 🌷
You're a lovely person I think, please continue here sharing when you can and what you wish. 😊