my aunt is well stocked with cheese cake and/or ice cream always.
Hello hive fam, I hope all is well with you. I'm have been lying in bed all day (except for when I ate) and now I am trying to get myself to do something.. and that is to post something..
I even intellectually know how I am so lucky to have all I have and to be here with my mom and aunt and uncle, and also my sister and her two youngest kids live nearby and also my 2 cousins, oh and also my one cousin's daughter who I posted a pic of earlier. (the really tall girl)
I took my medicine as normal and even started taking my wellbutrin, an anti-depressant, and I'm hoping it will kick in real soon.
I think what got me down all of a sudden is when I emailed my soon to be x wife who I was married to for 22 years. I regret ever telling her many things I've told her or my actions that led me to this point.
She is better off.. I realize it, but I am selfish and wish she had just said no way when I mentioned the word, divorce. I really did myself in. I am feeling like what is there even to look forward to, even though I know I am only 51 and have many years ahead of me.. but they will be without seeing her and my kids like before.
Again, I know I did myself in, but I feel like that is just part of my sickness. (bipolar since I was 16) Maybe I shouldn't post this. I usually try and post much lighter subjects. Forgive me... I just needed to get my feelings out.
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It can be helpful to vent your thoughts and feelings.
Too much sugar in your diet? I am neither a doctor nor a dietician so I can't say!
I always take a handful of one of these cereals before I eat sweets. It supposedly slows sugar absorption so you don't get the rush then crash. https://grainberry.com/ Also they are packed with B vitamins which gives energy and can help with mood. One source on the subject: https://www.verywellmind.com/the-mental-health-benefits-of-vitamin-b-complex-5322841
Seems to work for me so I figured I'd mention it!
I don't know what to say about most of what you're walking about in this post. Maybe it is what it is, and maybe no use thinking of what could have been different. I say that because I do too much of just that thing! I'm commenting as much for myself to read and remember, as I am for you or anyone else who reads this.
Have a nice night! :)
!BBH !UNI !LADY
thanks kenny.. for ur words of advice. :) I will try and think on it. 👊
Of course, cake is something sweet make the life be better 😍